I'm dying already. The prep work to write up the reflection journal is killing me. Worst, it's a never ending process - I hate reflection journals.

School had been fine for me, got to start school straight after the orientation camp,

just a bit stressful coz of the time limit given to complete the RJ

and the daily research we have to do like everyday for every module with no data to back out.

(when I'm like so used to going about being spoon fed.)

All pure research, okay, maybe 10-20 % of what the facci said in class.

Therefore, ended up skipping lunch just to get extra time during the breaks.

But I think I will survive. I will, and I have to!

I will not sway away anymore!

Easier said than done. *sigh*

Ps: Why am I still so nervous when I'm presenting!?!

It's suppose to be easier than performing on stage?!

God bless me(:

A super major breakdown.

As the title reads, I just had a major breakdown,
And i swear, it's big, well maybe just to me since i really had no idea what came over me to let me have such a big reaction over minor things in my repetive life.

Maybe i just cant control it anymore.
Just a little tired of life.
Tired of everything around me,
Tired of being told to do what i dislike.
Tired to bee controlled like a 5 yr old girl.
Tired of the insufficient freedom i getting.
Tired of just not being me.

A super expired post.

It has been long since I have updated this cringling old blog. Although I have guiltily been online all these times. Your curious minds might be asking, what am I exactly doing?

Basically nothing major at all, playing facebook games, photoshopping my pictures, talking to my JJ fanatic friends, all sort of things, except blogging, unless you are pretty willing to include marco blogging as blogging, I have been good to leave little messages about my life using twitter using my phone.

But I have much abandoned twitter as well, cause it's simply too boring to be tweetering all about life when you know nobody's reading, in anyway, at least putting something on facebook you know someone's peeping, you just dunknow cause nobody says it.

Alright so much for the cyber part of life, Shermaine had been fine physically and maybe in a way mentally, just havinga little too much of tummy upset and a major JJ hangover, although it's already a week since she have seen JJ, but her heart still beats whenever she sees pictures or videos of him. His sexiness is irrestistable. Don't you agree?

Everything that happened on 28th March is still engraved deeply in Shermaine's mind; All the watitng, sitting just to see you makes it all worth while.

Okays, I would better stop blogging right now, before I go any longer about how sexy my dear is. I still have work tomorrow, good night people. Good night. As only god knows when will I ever blog again. Ciaos people.

Another piece of shit.

And so, after much research, marketing and hunting,
I have finally bought my button.
And guess what, I'm not very happy about it even though I should.
Regardless of the advantages that wow-ed and psycho-ed me in the first place,
The other upcoming disadvantages or should I say defects are failing me, making me regret my very choice.

Maybe to many, there isnt much of a problem or issue to you, but the unbalanced stereo is seriously bugging me. Making me unknowingly tilt my head to see if the sound will miraclously be leaking to the other end.

Life's realy a shitty piece of game.

What's wrong with me?

Hello passer by to my blog, how are all of you all doing?
Shermaine didnt had a boring aka no life day.
She was with part of her frens out on a buffet date,
which in a way was fun, it has been long since I ever laughed so carefreely.
It's like a date that has no boundaries, nobody cared whether you were ugly, fat or short.
And it has been long ever since I had opened up this openly into a talk.
Today they let me into a new definition of friendship.
In some ways, it's indeed in some way stress relieving after having so much of my no life crap.

After all these crap about stepping into another stage of your life,
meeting new friends, new challenges and being in a new environment.
If you know me well enough, you would jolly well know that I'm not a person who like unfamiliarity, more to say adapt to it perfectly without flaws.
Although the JJ gathering once again proved me wrong.
But seriously, I suddenly just feel this huge sense of unfamiliarity gushed into my life once again.
Seeing all my friends moving on, adapting into their new stage of life.
But to tell the truth as a matter of fact, I'm also changing, blending into this on moving change,
turning into a much different person compared to the past.

An good example is a big change in my music sense, I have no idea to what's going on in my head, but nowadays, I find myself tuning into gold 95, listening to the tunes and finding it nice, compared to the songs from singer like jj lin( which is wierd), alan luo, dbsk, shinee and etc.
I'm not saying that I would totally block them out of my life since they have already gave me so much joy, but it's just damn odd.

I know that's not a good example to show that I have changed, but even from the jj lin event,
I have been finding myself doing things I have never done or will never think I have the guts to do so.

Is this change even good?

What's wrong with me?

PS: This is the first time I think a post looks perfectly fine without a picture on top.

In the end, it's still back to square one.

Yeps, after struggling so long with myself whether to change my link, it's still back to square one.
The thought of having people linking my old link, and ended up turning shame-island, a domain I used for more than4 years end up to be just another dead link is already giving me the creeps.

Haha, so it's still back to shame-island.

All I can say about my life is that Shermaine seriously have no life.
She has led another moment of her life in her own world doing nothing much, even her own mobile phone has gone quiet.

She wants her life back.


Human beings are seriously so funny, when God gives them back their hectic lifestyle,
they would complain how life sucks, and how they want a break when they can escape away from their hectic lifestyle and take a breath.

But when God gives them a super duper carefree life, yes, they might be very happy at first.
When everything starts to slow down to the way they want, but as time goes by,
they will start whining all over again to how boring their life can be.

How irony can humans be?

What do I really want?

It's that dream come true!!!!

Pardon me, as now,

as I would, in a matter of a few seconds turn into a super super crazy fangirl!!!

Simply because, I won the CDrama special lucky draw
and got to be one of the lucky 30 fangirls to have a private meeting w JJ!!!!

& I got to hug JJ (L) to the max~!

OMG!

Cant believe it?!

Seriously to tell you the truth, neither can I.

*Especially when the person only informed me like less than 24 hours away from the event.*And you know what's the worst thing? coz it's a bai se qing ren jie,

which in another word, a day where girls give prezzies to guys they admire,

so as fans, all of us are required to do up/buy a present for him(:

and with the super short notice, i seriously dunno what to buy sio!

I mean like to me, JJ is just another idol that I go after due to these several reasons,

1. He's cute to me(:

2. He has a a super dream vocal that i would die for!

3. I'm so attracted to him!!!

But I'm just an ordinary fan and not his friend.

So please understand if like I dunno what to buy for him(:

But at last, after all these, at last I still drew a card for him. Yes, only a card.

But when I gave it to him, he liked it and said " I was talented" .

Many also said it's nice... heeehheees. So it's at least better than nothing!

The event was like more than what I was expecting,

coz like at first I imagined it as like some sort of like, you know that kind of like JJ comes in, sing for you, take picture with you and then go off...

but it's like NO, it's not like that...

It's like firstly JJ comes in, then like we're all not suppose to take pics of him.

then, it's like he started talking to us, like we are his own friend.

Even ask us whether we know any jue chao to chase girl's hearts or not. haha.

(read wan bao for more details,haha)

then like totally no gaurd again us, very unlike the usual him u see in the concerts or whatsoever.

it's so cool to see this side of him, the childish and funny side of him.

This side of him seriously made me miss him even more.

This is for JJ, although i noe that he will never ever see it,

"JJ, you're getting thinner and thinner due to all the illness and the hectic schedule you got in the past and even now, remember to eat more and take good care of your body. Dont let all of your JMs worry you further, May God Bless You in whatever you do. Jiayou!"

PS: Despite all the cock ups I had before seeing u, it's all worth it, be prepared I will be back.

I had fun, Imy. It's that dream come true.